28 April 2012

cloudy saturday

Not too much has happened since my last day of work in Chantilly, in the way of interviews and such. I did have one interview this past Thursday at a growing health insurance company in Maryland. They told me that the interview process had just started, so I won't hear anything back until the end of this next week. And there's going to be a second round of interviews as well. So, we'll see were that goes, if anywhere.

We've been waiting for the weather to get warmer finally, but, there have been days lately where it's still so damned chilly! Sometimes in the past, you only have spring for a little while and the rest of the time it's humid, hot summer, until fall.

This coming Monday would have been hub's usual day off, but this time around, the chef-boss has an event going on in D.C. that he's essentially dragging all of the kitchen-staff too. Something to do with cooking/catering for politicians, Hillary Clinton, and the Japanese prime minister! Cool. :) He will get paid for it, but he'll probably be getting back really, really late, and I wish we didn't have our usual day off taken away this week.

Lately, hub's been going to a local state park to try to forage for things in the woods. Seems that he's been reading up on some online forums, and maybe guys at work, telling tales of their successes. We've gone a few times together on his days off, but haven't found anything! Haha. I think he need to go to another state park. But maybe we're just not doing it right!

21 April 2012

and all my dreams, torn asunder

(I don't know if I like this new blogger interface. Bleh.)

Taken from the title of a sci-fi TV series from the 90s I like. A little geeky? Yeah.

So people can have a big laugh at me now, I suppose. Since this past Monday was my last day at the new job in Virginia. The one that was the answer to my "prayers" a month ago. The job that was supposed to fix everything. And it's gone now. I am jobless (or least without a design job) again for the time being - a familiar place.

There were several factors that contributed to me not being able to keep the job, but I think the major factor, again, was my lack of experience. My ex-boss said herself that they had taken a risk in hiring me, since the job listing called for someone with at least 2-3 years of experience. And I took a risk I suppose, entering into an industry I had no idea about, and entering into a solid professional workplace in general for the first time. Very technical, extremely detail-orientated work. Mistakes, even small ones were not good to make, as the time went on. And the added strain of "Oh my god I NEED to keep this job, what do I do" mentality made my small mistakes even harder. Takeshi is all about learning things at a workplace, no matter if it's a positive or negative experience - everthing is a learning experience. Things I guess I learned while I was there?

  • I learned about my own learning curve, how I work, at what pace feels best to me
  • I learned about the Microsoft Outlook - never had used it before!
  • I learned how to better organize larger amounts of data/info & how to manage my daily schedule better
  • I learned that I probably won't look for another design job in the "promotional product" industry - that I want a job that allows me to be more creative every day, and less technical (to some degree)

So, now I am on the search again. In a sense I feel a small amount of freedom. Since I've learned more about myself and my own personal desires in graphic design, I can now look to find a job in which I truly will enjoy doing. A job that I hopefully will want to have, not just because of the money, but because I have a genuine interest in it. The perimeters of my search are kind of same - A small town; somewhere that's more affordable to live in (rent-wise), location could be anywhere, but, we just can't afford to move too far away i.e. west coast U.S. and such.

Hub's also considering his career; assessing what he wants for his future in the culinary industry, where to go next from here.

Because our time in Frederick is coming to an end. Our new timeline is as such. Our year lease will be up in October of this year. Either we move when I find a guaranteed job somewhere else, or when that does not happen, whenever he finds another job. Other than that, nothing is certain and we're not sure. I've just started sending out resumes so we'll see.

04 April 2012

*place interesting title here*

I can never come up with anything interesting sounding! Something eye-catching. Lol. Probably cuz there's not much going on right now.

I've just been, well, working. Nice thing though, this coming Sunday, the hub has off work! Which is really frickin' weird because I can't remember the last time he had a Sunday off. Not since he moved to this place in Frederick anyway.

It'll be our first day off together since March 11th. Whew. This "never-having-overlapping-days-off" thing blows. What's the point of working hard and earning more money, if we can never have the marriage/companionship to look forward to? Being with hub makes the rest of my life more bearable and meaningful.

I look at other couples on Facebook or the ladies back home, and I think, man they've got it good. They (seem to, I dunno for sure) see each other more often. They have kid, or having their second kid, they're able to have time together, to be a family. They're "settling down".

Meanwhile, we're f*ckin' rejoicing over the fact that we'll have our first day off together in 27 days. It's a half-way marriage or somethin'. Right now, we see each other about the same amount of time or less than that of when we were dating.

I think that the only people who have it worse possibly than us are where one or both spouses are in the military. Going off on tour for a few months or something. I couldn't do that at all. T__T

I guess I just wonder if we'll both ever be happy. It's been 4 years, and sometimes I feel that we haven't seen much of each other. I think of having a kid and....it seems like a nice thought.


How that work out, seriously? I'd be a single parent essentially. Would the kid even get to see him that much? *I* don't get to see him that much.

Sometimes I toy with the idea that maybe our careers/schedules/lack of finances just aren't conducive to having kids. Maybe it's just not meant for us. A dog or two would be more practical I suppose.

One upside perhaps is that we're never together long enough for us to get on each other's nerves? We're just always longing to see each other. I can't count how many times during the week we say "Miss you" to each other in notes or texts. It's very lonely on both sides.

All in all, these are just "wonderings". They surface every now and again. Who the hell knows what'll happen.

Going to read for a little bit before bed. Night!